What am I doing? All my life I’ve been trying to get “There” and I don’t even know where “There” is.
What is the point of memorizing the initials of circuit cards and how many pins each one has? It’s the same bullshit as society. The game of working to pay bills is the same as memorizing the physical characteristics of circuit boards. I mean, if I needed to buy a memory card, I would just look at the label or get the model number out of the book. I don’t need to memorize every type that has ever been built. I can get everything I need to stay alive today without money, and be happier.
Today I have to go to the bank and take money out of savings to pay the mortgage. I enjoy not working, but I have to because I will run out of money.
When I was a kid, I helped my friends big brother deliver newspapers. I basically (till now) haven’t been unemployed since, and I have nothing to show for it. I’ve been doing something wrong my whole life….. Everyone else seems so ‘In Control’ of their lives… I have never felt that way. I have always been running just to keep up.