I’m kind of angry about it.
It’s time for the IO Girl and I to have a talk. We have to either move forward or move apart. Living on separate islands is no good. Plus it’s in voilation of my no long distance relationship rule. Also my plans are to stay here and hers are not. Plus her cat and my dog will never get along.
There’s also a problem where I work so much, then I haven’t seen her in a long time so I go see her. Then I can’t go diving. I didn’t dive for almost two months before last week. I basically gave up diving for my now ex-wife and won’t do it again. I gave up everything and did everything I could to get that relationship to work and now in my life it’s William Shakespeare, “To Thine Own Self Be True”. Yessiree, diving will come before a relationship if push comes to shove. I already tried the other way and it was disastrous. I’m not saying I’m inflexible and won’t compromise. I’m not saying that at all. Diving is just very important in my life.
Many times in my life I have been lonely and wanted a relationship, then gotten into a relationship and found myself lonelier that I was before. Like now. If I wasn’t in an relationship already, I could at least go out and try to meet someone. But since I’m in a relationship, I’m trapped. I just have to suffer. Like right now, I’m waiting for her to wake up so I can talk to her on the stupid phone.
I realize that this doesn’t sound good, but it’s just half of how I feel. It would be great if things could work out with the OI girl. I want it to. I know this post doesn’t sound like that, but I want it to work if it can.