I started to name this post “Another Saturday” but paused and thought I probably have several with that title, So I tried to think of something different.
Last night I didn’t sleep too well, I kept waking up, thinking I had to go to work, then reminding myself it would be Saturday.
I’m diving this afternoon at about 2:30. Supposed to do a deep wreck called the Carrie Lee, but the breeze this morning isn’t looking too favorable. We still haven’t dived Funky Town. My UK dive buddy leaves Tuesday. That means Sunday is the last diving day for them. Yesterday we tried to do the top of Funky Town, but I had minor problems with my unit and we cut it short.
I was planning on going to the US this September, see my parents and sister, see my house in Virginia and just generally visit friends. But now I don’t feel like it. Mostly I wanted to see this girl whose name starts with an L but yesterday she told me she’s seeing someone and won’t be available in the way I hoped. She was down here on a cruise ship several months ago and it was the first time we had seen each other in about 10 years and we really hit it off well. Really really well. It is part of a very long story. I could go and spend more time north and less time south, but I really have zero desire to go at all anymore. I’ve only had what I consider to be three relationships in my life. I do not count my ex marriage as one of the three. The most important of the three was with L. I plan on posting about the whole thing soon, as it’s burning in my mind more and more and I’m going crazier and crazier being single and being seemingly unable to do anything about it. When I have a girlfriend, other women seem available, but when I’m single, I’m the only single person on the planet. As a rule, female availability has always been inversely proportional to my need and desire.
Don’t misunderstand, I’m not a victim who’s been mistreated and abused. I have a lot of faults and have made a lot of mistakes. I probably deserve what I got relationship-wise. I do know I have a great life, and I am grateful for it. It’s just that the only thing missing is the girl!