long night

Last night was a long night.
I stayed up late, went to bed almost midnight. I slept and slept. I woke up thinking it was almost morning. But it was 1:45. So I slept and slept some more. Woke up again, I was sure it was almost morning. it was 3:30 ish. So I slept and slept some more.
I woke up again, It MUST be time to get up now. It was 4:40. OK, 20 minutes to go. I lay there an hour (it seems)… 4:51 Dang!
5:00 the alarm goes off. Finally! Sheesh! I slept two weeks last night!
Here I am. Going to get ready for work now!
Good Morning!!!!
I went for a run again, took a shower and am drinking coffee. I forgot to mention that I got a call yesterday, the Turtle Beach Walks are officially done for the season. At least I found one! AND I asked her to call me when they go look for hatchlings. (Not Bio girl, forget her!)


This morning I got up and went for a run. Then I drove to work in the pouring pouring rain and when I got there, I installed that computer, connected it to the network and moved the announcers back in from the other studio. I had a rough time making it connect to the network at first and I was getting angry and frustrated, but finally everything clicked into place and its going good! Then I went for lunch and took a nap. I kind of felt guilty for not going to the beach and swimming and getting some exercise. I told myself I DID run this morning, but I feel guilty anyway.
I lost my temper at work today, I had a broadcast this afternoon and I called in to do the mic check and the announcer was doing an interview in the studio. The interview was supposed to be over at 5 and it was after 5, So I felt justfied in getting pissed off. For me, there is no such thing as justifiable anger. I also got mad yesterday when the same announcer was doing another interview in the studio the talk show was on. I never had a chance to test the equipment, there were problems, and a 1 hour talk show started 10 minutes late.
I have a theory. It is stupid, but here goes: My brain sits in a teacup full of water. there is a tiny pump with a filter that circulates the water and cleans it. When the water is clear, I feel great! When I get angry, the cause of my anger is like someone dropping a teabag into the water and it gets colored. Even after the source of anger goes away, (someone takes the teabag out) The water stays colored untill the filter has a chance to make the water clear again. The filter isn’t terribly efficent. As long as the water isn’t clear, I don’t feel as good as I like to. That’s why I get angry quick and get over it slow. Is that a stupid theory or what? I think I get angry easier than most people, but get over it quicker, which isn’t too good, because I get mad, then they get mad back, then I get over it, but they’re still mad at me, then I feel like guilty for getting mad, and I’m under their assault.
Right now I feel bad that I lost my temper, and I hate it every time I do that. I wish I could not get angry.
But now I’m going for a bike ride.


After almost a week of
Banging my head against the wall,

I finally got that computer fixed. 

Thank You! Thank You!
It shouldn’t have taken so long.
(it WAS the first time I ever worked on/configured a RAID)
If there’s no further problems, I can get it installed and working tomorrow!
(I can’t remember exactly where I stole these pics from… but it was from other blogs!)

I always see triangles

The first thing I saw whan I walked outside for the dogs walk was a huge triangle in the sky. I said to myself’ “I never noticed THAT before!” . The triangle was formed by three stars, one, which I already knew, was Pollux, as in Castor and Pollux, as in the Twins, AKA the constellation Gemini. The other two I had to look up. Number two was Procyon, the brightest star in the constellation Cannis Minor, the Little Dog. And the third, wasn’t a star, it was the planet Saturn. That’s why I never saw that triangle before, because Saturn moves rapidly in relation to the stars and probably as soon as tomorrow or certainly next week, my triangle will be gone. But this morning, it was a perfect triangle of bright stars in a lightening sky. Pointing east.
I always see triangles in the sky, I don’t really know why. I can recognize a triangle by the difference in the three angles and they always seem to jump out at me. When stargazing, I start with a known constellation, then I jump from triangle to triangle to find the constellation I am looking for. I’m not always looking for three bright stars either, sometimes its three that are of the same magnitude (brightness) in a group of brighter stars. For example, Centaurs neck has a triangle of three dim stars in it. Centaur is a very complex constellation. At the astronomy meetings, they sometimes ask me where a certian constellation is. It makes me feel good. They are all much better astronomers than I, with telescopes and knowledge. I just can find the constellations. (I always look at a map before I go, to be familiar in advance)
Sometimes I look up an don’t recognize a thing.
I picked a star as my favorite when I was a little boy. I could always find it by its triangle, and it was red. I didn’t know at the time, but the constellation was Orion, the the red star I picked was Betelgeuse. You can find its triangle if you look.
(I am using red text so it doesn’t destroy your night vision.)
Laying in bed this morning, I decided I wasn’t going to post today. I didn’t have anything to say. Then I saw that triangle…


I feel kind of bla-zay today. The beach walk was cancelled, because the D.O.E. people aren’t here. I’m doing laundry, got the non-specific blues. Going to work soon.
You know what? I don’t do anything creative. Every 5 years of so, I decide I want to draw and I go out and buy all these sketch pads, pencils, and books with titles like “How to Draw”. I can’t draw worth dawg doo. I wish I was able to do something creative, like paint, draw, write a song or SOMETHING!!

Like I said, I got the non specific blues.
Maybe I feel not right because:

I haven’t been diving in over 10 days.

I had a taste of something I’ve really been wanting for a long time and now it is out of reach again.

I have had too many days working in a row without a day off.

I keep thinking about another thing that I’ve mentioned before that concerns someone in bloggerworld. (I know, I shouldn’t let it bug me, but I do. I said I was going to let it go, but can’t)

I have not been too successful lately with the repairs I need to make at work.

If I thought more, I could add to the list.

Anyway, its time for me to head out the door for work!
Have a great day!

Wasted Day

Today I worked on that computer. It was weird. The guys who sold it and developed the broadcast program told me how to reconfigure it. Finally I called tech support for the RAID Controller manufacturer. He said I can’t do it that way.
So tomorrow I have to start over, re-format both drives and start over.
But I’ll get it, and when I do, I will be the all knowing diety about RAIDs!

That was work, but how do I feel?

I feel like I CANNOT sleep alone tonight after meeting that girl. I called the Bio Girl, no answer, no voice mail (I don’t even know if I’m turtle nest beach walking tomorrow) . I haven’t called the Fundraiser girl…

I just called her and she’s busy at the moment but promises to call back when she’s done. I like her but I don’t think anything can work between us because we’re so different. And I respect her enough that I wouldn’t try to just “get some”, unless of course she indicates that she wants to just “get some” in which case I will be most accomodating.

As far as I am concerned, the Bio Girl is out. The Fundraiser Girl, while the most desirable to me, isn’t realistic to hope for. The Other Island Girl, well, she lives on another island. I don’t do long distance. We can see each other again and maybe somethig will develop, but in the meantime… I’m still looking and I have zero prospects.

OK she called, I’m going to see her right now.

Lazy Mans Post

It’s back to work this morning, gotta fix that computer! I’m having trouble getting the RAID working. I’m going to need a RAID at home when I get done with this. RAID stands fo “Redundant Array of Inexpensive Drives. They can be set up several ways, basically variations of making several drives look like one huge one, or to have an automatic backup of a specific drive(s). I’m setting mine at work for automatic backup. It’s good for hardware failure, but not good for software failure. Any software or data problems are just replicated on the backup, which is what happened and what I am fixing.

I took these tests I found on Somebody elses blog. This is not really the type of thing I think is cool to post, but do I bloody care? It’s kind of fun to take the tests.

How You Live Your Life

You are honest and direct. You tell it like it is.
You’re laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.
You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.
You have one big dream in your life, and you never lose sight of it.

You Are 40% Weird

Normal enough to know that you’re weird…
But too damn weird to do anything about it!

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You’d like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future… one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage something you’ve always wanted… though you haven’t really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You’ll do anything for love, but you won’t fall for it easily.

Got Lucky

After whining for the past two days about never getting laid I just wanted to tell you I got lucky Saturday night. It was good beyond description. And I really really want to see her again. Thats all I’m going to say.
I just got home from the airport and am totally tired. I know, I promised pics but I am sorry I only have these of the Brac Reef Resort, that I took from the air as I was leaving. I didn’t have as much free time as I expected. On the first pic, notice how close the resort is to the west end of the island, and the airport runway. The second one is a crop of the first, showing the boundaries of the resort. click to enlarge

Good Night!

Biker Dude

I rented a free bicycle from my hotel and rode down here to my secret WiFi place. It’s weird, because the restaurant/bar where it is located is closed, I’m sitting here at an empty outdoor bar, with a pool. All closed, nobody here but me. It’s a pity, ’cause I have some money I’d like to spend on something to drink and a great big ‘ol steak. Also because it is a great pool and bar. I usually eat here every trip.
MY hotel charges $15 an hour for internet access. but they let you use a bike for free.
Today I did my two broadcasts and got to spend a little time by the pool afterwards. Tomorrow is the last broadcast at 11 AM, then the flight is about 6 PM. So there’s some free time there. I want to explore this seemingly inaccessable part of the island I found a few trips ago.

About my previous post. I’ve been asking myself why I publicise that shit here. The answer is because I want to hear what people have to say about it. I was kind of disappointed to have zero comments! Sheesh! At least You guys are polite enough to not say you think I really AM a freak to my face! (I knew it already)

I took a lot of pics today but none really for postng here. they’re of my co-workers broadcasting and not my blogtype photos.

Cayman Brac Morning

Here I am on Cayman Brac. Last night I worked till about 9:45. Then went to bed. the broadcast was from a bar at the hotel where we are staying. It was a big party
I went to my room after the broadcast and helping the hotel manager fix a lock. My co-workers band was playing at the party at the bar and I heard it was a big thing. I wanted to go but that isn’t my type of thing, as you know from my photo club meeting post. I am never going to meet anybody if I don’t ever go out and meet someone! I think I operate by a different set of rules than the rest of the world. I feel like I don’t fit in at such things. very uncomfortable. There were lots of girls and sexy dresses and cleavage and I always wanted to just meet anyone but have never been able. A girl three feet from me might as well be on a different planet. I can’t communicate. I am so clueless I can’t even describe it.
Anyway, I don’t want to travel down that road this morning.
Today I have to work and it will probably take almost all day.
I am sitting in the rental car outside my secret WiFi place. Yes, it is still here!
Now I can take my emails back to my room and relpy to several that need it.
I’ll be back tonight with pics! (I hope)